much easier to read than to believe...

i've been slowly reading Chicken Soup for the Military Wife's Soul and one of the stories last night ended in the most amazing way...
"Whether husband or wife, we are still married to soldiers. When duty calls, the soldier will answer. In fact, he may seem eager to leave those he loves and fight the good fight. It is hard to be married to a hero. A soldier is called to fight, and the spouse of a soldier is called to understand. Understanding makes you a hero, too."
to be honest, when i read that i started crying. i've been in kind of a weird place with this deployment and with my "job" as an army wife. i don't feel like i'm doing anything special, nor do i feel i am really serving my country. i've had so many people thank me for my "service" and i say thank you but do not feel i deserve thanks. this is the only marriage i've ever known. i do not know what its like to wake up beside my husband every morning. eventually hubby will come home and we will get some time together. hopefully enough time for him to get through school but i know that this will not be our last deployment. instead, this is only the beginning but i am grateful to have so many supportive friends and family!