goodbyes.

if each goodbye is a learning opportunity then i am tired of learning. and what exactly do you learn from a goodbye? in my relationship alone it is safe to say that i've said goodbye at least sixty times and i'm not talking its the "end of the night" goodbyes, i'm talking sixty or more "i won't see you for a week or two at least" goodbyes. the only thing all of those sad moments have taught me is how not to cry and i still do sometimes.
i guess each goodbye teaches me strength and patience. i'm not so sure thought. sometimes he leaves and i have no idea when i'll see him again . . . those are the hardest. but other times, like now, i know exact dates which helpls. knowing really makes a world of difference. over the past two years, basic training and AIT included, some of the two week seperations were the hardest simply because i spent the entire time not knowing when i would get to see him again. now he is in california for three weeks and i'm doing okay because i know what day he is coming home.
that aside, of course i miss him. i always miss him, just some seperations are easier to deal with.
do you think each goodbye is a chance to learn? and if so, what exactly do you think goodbyes teach you?