Yes today is Day 30 of 30. I missed the Day 24 progress report. I'm sorry about that. Time got away from me.
I can't believe it's been 30 days. Things started so well and to be honest just after the half way point things fell apart. I had some major meltdowns. I'll be real, I had a couple of toddler worthy tantrums. Life and stress got the best of me. I got distracted and forgot to lean on God. That right there has disaster written all over it. I'm not pleased with how a good portion of those 30 days but I am pleased with the challenge as a whole. I'll tell you why.
This challenge has reignited a passion within me. Growing up with parents whose discipline techniques were quite different from each other, my goal before becoming a parent was to find the middle ground. To discipline my children but to do so in a calm, respectful, non-punitive way. Well then I had children and while I knew my goal was attainable and worthy of my best effort, I lost my way. The tears are building as I write this. It's hard to be this honest in such a public way. Anyways, I gave in to peer pressure and expectations and forgot to trust in my instincts. I wasn't focused on God and I'm still feeling the aftermath of that dark time. Finally taking a stand and taking on this challenge reminded me of so many important things. I serve a big God full of mercy, grace and forgiveness. I am a good mother. I have been blessed beyond measure. And my joy does not come from my circumstances but from my heavenly Father. Yes I made mistakes but I made the effort. When I did yell I came back and apologized as soon as I was calm. There were still many moments when I restrained from yelling and that's a big deal to me.
So 30 days came and went. I wouldn't trade this experience for anything. However, my journey is not done. Tomorrow begins a new challenge and I'm so excited to see what God has in store for me this time. I want to thank everyone for their love and support. Please keep my family in your prayers.