Sunday, February 22, 2009

the journey has begun.

i know that jesse was activated back in november. his mobilization date was november 30th to be exact. that is when his deployment began. at least thats when the army says his deployment began. but for me, the deployment began today, this very evening, when i got off the phone with him so that he could board the plane. i don't know where all he will lay over between now and when he finally makes it to kuwait. honestly, i told him i didn't want to know til after the fact. but it all feels so surreal right now. i feel like its a dream and tomorrow morning i'll wake up and get his "good morning my love" text as normal. but i know i won't. he'll be off somewhere even farther away than new jersey. i didn't think it would hit me this hard. i guess i figured i would take it in stride like any other day. but i didn't. oh have the tears fallen. i haven't cried like this since january 2nd. oh well. a few months from now this really will be just another day. and a year from now, everyday like this will be summed up in one word..."deployment"...as i laugh off the memory until i have to face it again. but for now i am off to sleep. i have a long impatient week ahead of me...

1 comment:

Laura said...

We are praying for you both!