jesse left today for the first of three separations. honestly, i'm scared. not so much for this separation but for the third. him being gone for 400 days. i think he said it best himself. there are unavoidable fears and changes that we will have to overcome. i'm just so excited at the prospect of becoming his wife at the end of this month. i just wish we had every one's blessings. but i'll be praying about that. not that they miraculously become okay with us getting married but that it doesn't hinder our relationship.